there is hope.. after two days of snow and two days of rain, i saw a rainbow at work today – a promise that the sun will come out soon to erase all the greyness away.
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here my keyboard finds me at a loss, unable to type another word that might bring some inspiring quotation to life – especially when inconsequential worries are bugging me and i’m watching paramedics trapped upside down and bleeding in grey’s anatomy. haven’t been following this series for a while, the episodes have lain unwatched on my iphone for eternity.

tonight, had to report my atm card as stolen but was put on hold for a good 30 minutes before i could speak to a live person “there is no available call center officer to take your call” is still ringing in my ears – must be a real busy day for them. as it is for me, as always. can’t get funds from my bank now, still have to submit a notarized affidavit of loss to my branch that’s a thousand miles away. well, it’s a good time to start saving.

the battery i’ve been waiting for finally came, it’s late and it doesn’t fit. sometimes life hits you at the most unexpected moment in the most unexpected of ways. already spent around 15 bucks for the taxes now i have to ship it back to get a refund. hmmm things are getting more interesting everyday.

have to be in 2 support calls at 6am tomorrow morning, hope i’m sane enough at that unholy hour so i can effectively do my work. i also hope that my spell of unfortunate events would run out soon. my four leaf clover is on the verge of giving up.

**credits to ethos_tech who took this photo**

this is the view from our back porch, we’re snowed in, can’t go out. me and my cousins ordered mickey d’s mcflurry and mcnuggets while shopping online and watching reruns of csi.

more reasons to be lazy on a weekend when all around you is white flurries. wish i brought my office laptop home last friday, that way i could work from home on monday.

tomorrow’s forecast is torrential rain – mcslushies anyone?

after stuffing myself with turkey and pumpkin pie, i opened the newly delivered iphones from the online apple store – lo and behold, it’s an otb 1.1.2! yey! now i’ll have a chance to play with this new firmware. after countless servings of mini muffins, i finally saw the light.

here’s a guide on how to unlock an otb 1.1.2

what you need:
1. otb 1.1.2 iphone, week 46 and up for us.
2. iphone 1.1.1 restore file (the old one, the one from apple site has tiff patch so you wont be able to use the old method to jailbreak and activate)
3. iphone 1.1.2 restore file (just download from itunes)
4. ibrickr 0.9.1
5. jailbreak 1.1.2
6. patched lockdownd file
7. winscp or any ftp client of choice

steps: (this is not detailed and idiot proof)
1. restore to 1.1.1 using itunes
2. get out of dfu mode through ibrickr
3. jailbreak and activate, follow up to step 7
4. from installer.app, install oktoprep.
5. update to 1.1.2 through itunes
6. jailbreak and activate using jailbreak 1.1.2
7. from installer.app, install openssh
8. connect to your iphone using winscp and backup /usr/libexec/lockdownd to your pc
7. upload the patched lockdownd to the same location.
8. insert sim of choice, reboot.
9. done!

credits to shabba, dilinator, callx, natetrue, conceited software, dev team, elite team, hackint0sh and modmyifone community.

last saturday i turned another year older. i shared cake billing with my manager and my uncle and my three colleagues who were also celebrating their birthdays in october. some people seem to think that as you grow older, you think less about gifts and focus more on the intangible melodramatic introspection crap. on the contrary, i love receiving gifts. so if you still havent bought me any, you should start shopping now, bwahahaha *_* my wishlist includes an ultraportable and a trip to europe, i also accept cash in any currency hehehe

“we all need to be a little crazy to be sane.”

while helping my cousin do her apa formatted paper, we caught this rerun on ctv. i remember this movie was my favorite back in college. the characters are very much like the people i met and hanged out with back then. yeah we were all crazy and inebriated. angsty and immature. thinking we could change the world but the world changed us. softened our souls, hardened our hearts.

ambivalent. that’s how i feel right now. torn by two strong forces into opposite directions. which path to choose? which fork to take? hmm, tough times ahead. especially when my bank accounts are not cooperating.

i wish time would give me a day to go back to that one moment. i miss the feeling of being carefree and irresponsible. just throwing caution to the wind and going to where the wind blows. there’s too much at stake now, i can’t slack off. the world is waiting.

finally i’ve decided to stop rattling the skeletons in my closet and just let them go. i don’t have the time nor the energy to pull floating bodies from the mud that they chose to immerse themselves in. i can only repeat myself as much as the next person, i don’t have unlimited patience, optimism is not my middle name, i am fallible. and yet, despite these faults, i know when its time to move on.

i’m just tired of making people see beyond their own little bubble. i get too involved in their problems that i forget i have issues of my own to take care of.

so today, i decided it’s time i start rearranging the way i live my life and cross out the things that ceased to become possibilities for me and just focus on the ones that are more likely to be reality.

1. i won’t be an astronaut, okay i’ve had this dream since i was 4 when i first watched the lunar landing on our monochrome tv, but now that i’m finally going to visit NASA this weekend, i realized i’ll never be one of them. i don’t know the difference between polymer synthesis and olefin metathesis reaction; neither do i care. anyway, i can still go on a space shuttle as a tourist like that guy who made ubuntu. hooray computer geeks!

2. our project is not gonna make it for october release, no matter how long i stay at work trying to fix all the environment issues and trace where the messages are getting lost. that’s actually good, i can sleep for more than 4 hours now. its going in on the first week of november anyway, so it won’t jeopardize my travel plans.

3. some people are never gonna love me the way i want them to. might as well let them be. there might be someone better out there for me, someone to say hi to late at night, someone to watch over me, or if not, life goes on. not my loss.

this morning, a bunch of moon beings gathered to witness the total solar eclipse. like last time, they prepared anti uv coated scopes as they waited for the shadow of the earth to obliterate the sun from their view. this eclipse is said to be the longest one ever, lasting for more than 1 and a half decan star.

revelries were at hand as a lot of myths and traditions are recollected. it was said that during this time, the moon looks blood red from the earth, and humans in different parts of the planet do weird things. it is believed that the moon has a great effect on this planet and its people, however moon beings neither notice nor care about it.

the next tse is predicted to happen 177 solar days from now.

okay, so what’s the hype with this notebook? they said this was the legendary oil skinned acid free stitched paper that hemmingway and picasso used, so what? will this make me a better writer or painter?

i don’t know, but i got one anyway, don’t take chances, right? haha ^_^ nah curiosity just got the better of me and i just had to have one, now all i need is my trusty staedtler hb and i’m all set to write the greatest event of my life.

whatever. moving on..

as usual, just like every time i get a new toy, i become this sleep deprived gadget obsessed tech junkie who can’t really call it a day till i take apart everything and put them back together in the same order. i guess i just like testing the capabilities and limits of the current apple of my eye. anyway, it’s about as functional as can be, i like the fact that there’s free wifi everywhere, and i can just take snap shots of moments that captures my interest and upload them in real time.

so here’s my new photo blog.

there’s a saying here in vancouver that when you can see the horizon from where you are, then it’s about to rain, but if you can’t see it, then it’s already raining.. it seems like summer lasted for only a week, my mornings are now greeted with dewdrops, showers and mists. i do love the balmy weather, when the sky is undecided if it wants to shed tears or remain brooding; almost like the way i feel right now, floating in uncertainty, swimming in limbo.

i guess this is what happens when somebody asks me what my plans are for next year or next month, or even a week from now. i mean i don’t even know what i’ll have for dinner, or if i would actually eat dinner tonight, that’s as much foresight that i can muster. dumb i know, but yeah maybe i do have to update my resume just so i have a backup plan if i get kicked out of my job. but lo and behold, i dont have a copy of my cv on my laptop. i cant believe it, what will happen to my chances of being a world renowned window cleaner if i’m this complacent. oh well, there are other professions, i just might give domestic partnership a chance.

haha, who am i kidding?! rainy days make me crazy. now let’s see if the sun will show tomorrow..