today felt like any other day. i woke up and found the sun’s rays invading my window blinds. i looked outside and everything is at it should. the never ending construction noise from gb is still there as well as the shouts of children enjoying the pool of another condo’s rooftops. there is no view from this side of the city, except the walls of other buildings, sactuaries they built to keep themselves away from things they want to be close to.

i stare at the empty space under my table where my cpu used to sit and ponder what else i should dispose in order to “simplify” my life. i can’t believe i’m in another existential crisis, i get this every start of the month, like seasonal flu.

good thing my ipod adds music to my life, here’s one of my pick-me-up-from-the-dump songs:

—
woke up today like yesterday
i keep holding on
find my way through the city haze
it wont be long

today will be the brightest day
will never fade away
holding back the rain
turn it around

live and die in the 9 to 5
i sing your song
work overtime to buy peace of mind
we carry on

the man up there never seems to care
there’s something wrong

today will be the brightest day
will never fade away
holding back the rain
turn it around

hold on one more day

—
song lyrics by the meadows. listen to them here

people are now converging in paseo de roxas for the edsa revolution anniversary. i hope this day would end peacefully and without bloodshed.

the armed forces are on their guards and the whole ayala avenue has been rerouted again. i’m going out later to check it out.

how do you measure the distance between raindrops?

last saturday, kat, yuck, drei and i decided to test our fears and visit euro star =) we had tons of fun and almost hurled our lunch. good thing we didn’t really eat much before going there.

here’s a tip to survive the carnival: you’ve got to try g-force first, and you shouldn’t stop to sit, not even for a second, you’ll just feel more dizzy when you stand up again. just run from one ride to the other and stretch your neck =)

my favorite ride is the flipper. nothing like seeing the world upside down.

what’s your scariest thought? is it being eaten alive by monsters? being chased across skull island by a gigantic ape? losing your job? your love? your life? or is it staying the same while the whole world revolves and changes right before your eyes?

i guess the one thing i’m most afraid of is… being left behind. yes the part where all those familiar and comfortable people get up, pack their bags and head off to worlds unknown while i stay there, unmoved, realizing i’m just too tired or lazy or stubborn to take my leave too. maybe i’m just too keen on growing roots that’s why i force myself to spin in place, wait for things to get better while i while away the time, do nothing and watch the rest of them get on with the their lives.

i wasn’t like this at all. i used to have limitless zest for new adventure. now i’m just idling, lost in space. my great light has faded away, and once again i am without purpose nor direction.

what a way to start the year.

it took me ten tries to remember my password on my other account, and so for preventive measures and for posterity, i migrated some stuff from my spymac blog, diaryland and chronicles. those would be entries from april 2005 backwards =)

i missed the vigan adventure because i had to take on some responsibilities that couldn’t be put off, aside from the fact that i’ve been sick for almost a week now. so instead of collecting pebbles from cobblestone streets, i spent the weekend sneezing and huddled in sheets.

from the wavy shores of pagudpod, my friends brought me sand =)