sometimes you just have to know how their doing: the people you’ve left behind, and the people who’ve left you. if it still feels like needle pricks to know that they’re a-ok and moving on and doing great, then stop lying to yourself, you’re not over them yet. and maybe you never will. after all we never really stop loving people. we just forget. conveniently.
it’s an overkill to think of these things now, two or three years later, after all, the moment has passed you by and you are left dancing alone on a ferry boat to nowhere. the bridge has been burned to ashes and you can’t put them back together no matter how hard you wish on a million falling stars. you just have to let it be, let things be, and wait for that wonderful calm to visit you again.
find the silence that chooses what to remember, and what to cast away. then keep it. and never ever let it go.
“never is such an awfully lonely word”
Author Archives: poeticnook
the great divide
what’s your scariest thought? is it being eaten alive by monsters? being chased across skull island by a gigantic ape? losing your job? your love? your life? or is it staying the same while the whole world revolves and changes right before your eyes?
i guess the one thing i’m most afraid of is… being left behind. yes the part where all those familiar and comfortable people get up, pack their bags and head off to worlds unknown while i stay there, unmoved, realizing i’m just too tired or lazy or stubborn to take my leave too. maybe i’m just too keen on growing roots that’s why i force myself to spin in place, wait for things to get better while i while away the time, do nothing and watch the rest of them get on with the their lives.
i wasn’t like this at all. i used to have limitless zest for new adventure. now i’m just idling, lost in space. my great light has faded away, and once again i am without purpose nor direction.
what a way to start the year.
happy
happy new year. happy new toy =)
i need a new memory stick!
epic verses
mental block
dutifully the night hides your ghost
behind a bed of wistful stars
i gaze and find no traces of your blood
as if you never existed
beyond the madness of my closed eyes
its a conspiracy, i know,
between you and the seven skies
this hide and seek and tale tell lies
i let them wade unnoticed
dspite these gray stains on my hand
i thought i was done breaking you
on a new poem’s coarse lines
but still you stalk me, a willing prey
wanting none of these vague words
trying hard to make a rhyme
trying hard to make me rhyme.
ndg.12.20.2005.7.37.p.m.
visit epic verses
curious incident
title: the curious incident of the dog in the night time
author: mark haddon
just finished reading this book =) bitterly funny and highly compulsive. twas reicheru who told me that she was reminded of me when she read this book. so i checked it out and found out that inded, i am autistic. =p
lights out
i dont know how you do it
with such elegant charm
how you fade away ever so swiftly
and come back again as if you were never gone
it’s like a magic trick
a disappearing act
one blink, and you’re here
another blink, then there’s none
you leave me awestruck,
confused, conflicted
you leave me wondering
wandering,
you
leave
me
teach me how to do that
just like the way you do
close the lights,
curtains down
watch me walk away too.
11.30.2005.5.38.p.m.
prime
“its like this: you love, you learn, then you let go. and it’s okay.”
where: Glorietta 4, Cinema 2
when: Saturday, 26 November 2005. 1:50 p.m.
my precious
powerbook g4 1.33ghz
512mb ram
64mb nVidia GeForce4 5200
80gb hard disk
built in bluetooth
built in airport extreme
dvd combo drive
mac os x tiger 10.4.3
goblet of fire
the best harry potter movie to date =)
where: Greenbelt 3, Cinema 3
when: Sunday, 20 November 2005. 12:30 a.m.
sukiyaki
it’s all because of you, I’m feeling sad and blue
you went away, now my life is just a rainy day
and I love you so, how much you’ll never know
you’ve gone away and left me lonely
untouchable memories, seem to keep haunting me
another love so true
that once turned all my gray skies blue
but you disappeared
now my eyes are filled with tears
and I’m wishing you were here with me
soft with love are my thoughts of you
now that you’re gone
i just don’t know what to do
if only you were here
you’d wash away my tears
the sun would shine once again
you’d be mine all mine
but in reality, you and I will never be
’cause you took your love away from me