25 random things

(tagged by Su & Krissy)

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it is because I want to know more about you.

1. When choosing between two evils, I choose the one I haven’t tried before 😉

2. One of my travel goals is to visit at least one new city every year.

3. One of these days I’m just gonna quit my job and bum around for a year and travel.

4. I’m spur of the moment, I don’t like planning, it’s easier to invite me for something tonight than to invite me for something next month.

5. When I’m disappointed, I go outside and walk until the world feels better again.

6. Sometimes I’m a walking contradiction, I probably have multiple personalities :).

7. I hate routine, I get antsy or go crazy when I’m doing the same thing over and over or when I’m always with the same people.

8. I’ve always wanted to be a writer and publish my work.

9. I cook when I’m sad, I like cooking better than eating.

10. When I like a song, I listen to it on repeat for at least a month until I start hating it and then I don’t listen to it anymore, I’m the same with gadgets.

11. I’m good at beginnings, I like starting things, then I usually abandon them in the middle.

12. I like winter and snow storms.

13. I don’t value things as much as I used to, I used to be more careful with stuff, I don’t like scratches or dents and dings, now I don’t really care anymore, imperfection just adds character.

14. I like the feeling of missing people, I would rather miss people than get tired of them and start taking them for granted.

15. My favorite colors are black and white and grey and blue and lilac.

16. I want to have a siberian husky.

17. It’s hard for me to sit still and grow roots, sometimes I just want to run away to a new place where noone knows my name, and start from scratch.

18. Three things I like in this world: travel, writing and mathematics, not in that order.

19. I like flying, and falling, I want to fly an airplane, or try skydiving one of these days.

20. I miss university. I like being in school, it’s so easy being a student, you just study and you get allowance, now you have to work for everything.

21. I have the classic peter pan syndrome, I don’t wanna grow up and be responsible.

22. When I go home to an empty house at night, I miss my family, I miss speaking in Tagalog, I miss my people, I miss my country.

23. There is no object that I value that much in this life that I’m gonna be really sad when I lose it.

24. I’m not afraid of death or dying, it’s the painful suffering before the end that sucks

25. I unintentionally drive people crazy just by being me.

fading to mediocrity

Your result for The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test… Fairly Normal
48 % Nerd, 30% Geek, 17% Dork

For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.

You scored less than half in all three, earning you the title of: Fairly Normal.

This is not to say that you don’t have some Nerd, Geek or Dork inside of you–we all do, and you can see the percentages you have right above. This is just to say that none of those qualities stand out so much as to define you. Sure, you enjoy an episode of Star Trek now and again, and yeah, you kinda enjoyed a few classes back in the day. And, once in a while, you stumble while walking down the street even though there was nothing there to cause you to trip. But, for the most part, you look and act fairly typically, and aren’t much of an outcast.

I’d say there’s a fair chance someone asked you to take this test. In any event, fairly normal.


If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback!

Take The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test at HelloQuizzy


Loneliness Quotient: 49%

Your Personalized Assessment Report:

49 is still a somewhat decent score, however there is definite room for improvement. We will examine the issues that could use work and see what can be done about them. Your friend issues are one blemish on your situation. Difficulties in this area are having an impact on your loneliness, and this is something that needs improvement. Luckily in your case, your family situation is not causing you any troubles. A positive family situation is definitely helpful. Things look much more bleak in your romantic life. Making improvements here by finding a good guy can drastically cut your level of loneliness. Thankfully you do not have a problem with shyness, so pursuing romantic leads and finding friends will not be as difficult as it might have been. Even though you’re a relatively outgoing person, it’s hard for you to meet interesting people due to the area you live in. You need to look harder or expand your boundaries to further lower your LQ score. Finally, it is important that you address some major insecurity issues you seem to have. This will enable you to further improve your social interactions and reduce your loneliness even further.

Take the Loneliness Quotient Test at Dating Diversions

personality disorder

here is how i fared in this online personality disorder test: (goes to show how demented i am)

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

Personality Disorder Test – Take It!

some additional info from www.mentalhealth.com

Paranoid Personality Disorder
Diagnostic Criteria
A pervasive distrust and suspiciousness of others such that their motives are interpreted as malevolent, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by four (or more) of the following:
1. suspects, without sufficient basis, that others are exploiting, harming, or deceiving him or her
2. is preoccupied with unjustified doubts about the loyalty or trustworthiness of friends or associates
3. is reluctant to confide in others because of unwarranted fear that the information will be used maliciously against him or her
4. reads hidden demeaning or threatening meanings into benign remarks or events
5. persistently bears grudges, i.e., is unforgiving of insults, injuries, or slights
6. perceives attacks on his or her character or reputation that are not apparent to others and is quick to react angrily or to counterattack
7. has recurrent suspicions, without justification, regarding fidelity of spouse or sexual partner
Does not occur exclusively during the course of Schizophrenia, a Mood Disorder With Psychotic Features, or another Psychotic Disorder and is not due to the direct physiological effects of a general medical condition.

Schizoid Personality Disorder
Diagnostic Criteria
A pervasive pattern of detachment from social relationships and a restricted range of expression of emotions in interpersonal settings, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by four (or more) of the following:
1. neither desires nor enjoys close relationships, including being part of a family
2. almost always chooses solitary activities
3. has little, if any, interest in having sexual experiences with another person
4. takes pleasure in few, if any, activities
5. lacks close friends or confidants other than first-degree relatives
6. appears indifferent to the praise or criticism of others
7. shows emotional coldness, detachment, or flattened affectivity
Does not occur exclusively during the course of Schizophrenia, a Mood Disorder With Psychotic Features, another Psychotic Disorder, or a Pervasive Developmental Disorder and is not due to the direct physiological effects of a general medical condition

Borderline Personality Disorder
Diagnostic Criteria
A pervasive pattern of instability of interpersonal relationships, self-image, and affects, and marked impulsivity beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
1. frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior covered in Criterion 5.
2. a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation
3. identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self
4. impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating). Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior covered in Criterion 5.
5. recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior
6. affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
7. chronic feelings of emptiness
8. inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)
9. transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms

Avoidant Personality Disorder
Diagnostic Criteria
A pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and hypersensitivity to negative evaluation, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by four (or more) of the following:
1. avoids occupational activities that involve significant interpersonal contact, because of fears of criticism, disapproval, or rejection
2. is unwilling to get involved with people unless certain of being liked
3. shows restraint within intimate relationships because of the fear of being shamed or ridiculed
4. is preoccupied with being criticized or rejected in social situations
5. is inhibited in new interpersonal situations because of feelings of inadequacy
6. views self as socially inept, personally unappealing, or inferior to others
7. is unusually reluctant to take personal risks or to engage in any new activities because they may prove embarrassing

Dependent Personality Disorder
Diagnostic Criteria
A pervasive and excessive need to be taken care of that leads to submissive and clinging behavior and fears of separation, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
1. has difficulty making everyday decisions without an excessive amount of advice and reassurance from others
2. needs others to assume responsibility for most major areas of his or her life
3. has difficulty expressing disagreement with others because of fear of loss of support or approval. Note: Do not include realistic fears of retribution.
4. has difficulty initiating projects or doing things on his or her own (because of a lack of self-confidence in judgment or abilities rather than a lack of motivation or energy)
5. goes to excessive lengths to obtain nurturance and support from others, to the point of volunteering to do things that are unpleasant
6. feels uncomfortable or helpless when alone because of exaggerated fears of being unable to care for himself or herself
7. urgently seeks another relationship as a source of care and support when a close relationship ends
8. is unrealistically preoccupied with fears of being left to take care of himself or herself

so, why are you running away?

“I don’t want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don’t want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don’t need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything’s alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I’d do that for you
Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?”
– hoobastank (running away) –

i’ve been listening to k-lite’s streaming radio for the past two days now and this has been a big help in making my working hours less dull. and thanks to tetski my song collection has increased =)

last night i slept at around 4 a.m., my body clock is all messed up, i should do something about this coming weekend.. but then again, i like being a night person, the night is more enchanting, more mysterious.. more foreboding…
the other day, i took this inkblot test at emode, i really strained my eyes from all those images, maybe this is why i got this kind of result:

— * —
your unconscious mind is driven most by Resistance

You approach the world with your guard intact because unconsciously, and perhaps consciously, you want to maintain an element of control in your relationships with people. You tend to hold your private experiences just out of reach of others. You’re not one to immediately show all your cards, to let people into who you really are until you’re ready.

Unfortunately, that sometimes means you also hide things from yourself. You may find that your desire to remain guarded backfires, affecting your self-awareness. Why are you like this? It’s possible that you act in this manner because of a deeply-rooted fear of being exposed, or of truly expressing yourself. To protect yourself from this fear, you act in the opposite manner, you are guarded.

There is a certain respect that comes with resistance, an unconscious understanding that the human psyche is very vulnerable. We all feel we have a lot to hide, and you are not one to be intrusive or thoughtless about how you approach sensitive topics with others. Therefore you inspire a sense of safety in others when they are around you. Your psyche is very deep, very rich, and the more you can let yourself know (both the good and the bad), the more you will be able to appreciate who you really are.

— * —

the security guard from the main gate is here, asking us what time we’ll be going home *yawn* i should finish my source codes soon.. back to the “real world”